Monday, January 7, 2013
Confessions of a Transistioner
I wrote this in the notepad of my phone awhile ago and at first I wasn't going to post but then I realized that It would be human to show the frustration of a transitioning girl. Besides, I know there is other females out there that feel the same. So here is my shameless post showing someone else that they aren't the only ones feeling this way, Enjoy :)
Frustration has to be the most correct word for how I currently feel. When I decided to no longer perm my hair. I didn't think styling would be so much of a problem. Not this early anyway.
The only thing that looks good is a wash and blow out. Nothing looks right not twist outs, braid outs, roller sets, nothing. I haven't tired flexi rods or cold rod sets or straw sets as of yet, but I'm pretty confident that they won't look to hot either.
Maybe the next set I try I'll do it on hair that is blow dried and then use a setting lotion or spray to get the job done. Who knows maybe that will really work for me. I mean after all something HAS to work. Right? :/ My new growth is growing upwards causing all desired styles to stick straight up.
On second thought maybe a wet set will do the job. I'll just be in the drying process for half the day, it's pretty hard getting my hair to air dry on rollers. I've never had such a problem styling my hair before and the frustration is leading me to want cut all my hair off, but I think having no length would drive me even more insane. No length, no style, feeling ugly, depressed. A part of me wants to go back to relaxer but that part is only like 3% to me its too late to turn back now.
Besides i'll be going back to losing my hair and another underprocessed job thinning hair and so much more:/ I really want to chop all 10 inches of my relaxed ends I swear. But getting used to having no hair styling for at least 6 months to a year I'm not okay with that. Yes DUH I know eventually it will grow but, ain't nobody got time to be feeling, not like themselves.
All the power to the woman that can chop it and go. I don't have that confidence. Shoot, I'm still trying to get to myself with no extensions and this is no easy road. My hair (no weave) gives me no life. Maybe I can get a sew in until my hair is long enough to braid and then big chop. (Evil grin) resulting to more sew ins until I am comfortable with my growth. :( I don't know, I don't know, I just Don't Know.
You have been tuned into. The confessions of a frustrated transistioner.